Safe to say, I am not ready. In my head, I ask "what the fuck did I get myself into?" On the other hand, I know I've been wanting/needing this. To get away from Seattle and to do something different. And, how the way our economy is at the moment... I feel pretty damn lucky to have this once in a lifetime opportunity.
I was one of the 9 out of 25 that they choose. Free ticket, free rent, and a salary. So, what am I scared of? everything else. Scared to be by myself in a country that I am the foreigner, for people to look up to me cause I can speack English, to live by myself, and to leave my family, friends and the newly addition to my heart, the boyfriend.
I've been a little fatigue lately trying to get this around my head. TEFL course is hurting my head. Not enough sleep. Lack of nutritional food. Haven't gone to Crossfit. Been drinking coffee like a college student studying for finals. I feel like shit.
On a happier note,
life isn't so bad when you have best friends to make you cancel all your plans the day before to get away & drive 2 1/2 hrs to a beach for some peace. i ♥ you, fools. ^_^
[may.mary.gretchen. // ocean shores 08.05.09]
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